Our origins.

There are two people whom we owe our existence to. These two people are very important people in our lives. Because, without them, we would be nothing. And by nothing, i really mean, nothing at all.

Thinking back to the past, when we were still tiny kids who think that the scariest threat is: "I tell teacher horh!". Back in those days when we knew nothing about the world. Our parents have been there for us since we were born. They have been giving their all to groom us and raise us up to become strong and healthy people. All the blood and tears and sweat that were shed for us. Ever remember the times when we were sick? My mum would stay up all night just to take care of me. She would constantly place a wet towel on my forehead, she would help clean my body, she would spend all night brewing a medicine that was able to cure my illness. She would carry me and walk to the clinic to see the doctor, and she would carry me back.

Another memory would be when i had to stay back in school until very late at night because of preparations for competition. My mum cooked some dinner, and she walked to school just to pass me dinner. And that time, my house was a full 20min walk away from school. Yet she walked all the way just to bring me food. And afterwards, she would wait in school for me until i could go home. She waited patiently for me in my school, where no one was around anf it was dark and lonely. Yet, she waited, for me.

My dad would drive me to school if he could. Usually he had to leave home earlier to go for work. Yet, he still insisted on being slightly late for work just to bring me and my brother to school. Sometimes if his work ended early, he would pick me and my brother up from school to go back home. And sometimes, he would wait for hours. And yet, he waited.

My mum had weak knees and a constant headache. Yet she sacrificed her all for me. My dad always had a busy schedule. Yet he still managed to have time for us. When we were young, i didnt think of all these. But now, looking back in the past, i realised that no matter where i was, or what i was doing, i always had the support of my parents. And i am very thankful for them. Really thankful. Because without them, i would never be who i am today. I owe my life to them :) <3

Who says true love doesn't exist?

Watch this. (A very touching video. Dancing with true heart and soul~)

Insignificant. Invisible.

I guess i can be considered as invisible. My existence isn't all that important at all. One day if i actually disappeared without a trace, i wonder how many people would actually care, or actually realise. I'm not there for a class lesson, no one even realised. I'm sitting in a row of people, and sweets are being passed around, yet it never got to me. Walks past friends and waves at them, yet they look straight through me as if they dont know me at all. If i am removed from the equation of Life, i doubt anything will be changed. People will carry on with their lives. I would just become a part of history, which will be forgotten sooner or later.

It's funny how loneliness can be felt in a room full of people. Yeah sure, if i'm gone, some people will miss me and maybe mourn. But after a little while, life goes back to normal. To my friends out there, i wonder how many will still remember me. I wonder how many people will actually miss my existence. Has my life impacted anyone greatly? Or has it just been an insignificant part of everyone's lives?

I don't really know what i am feeling right now. But i guess i don't like the feeling of loneliness. Loneliness is a scary feeling. I don't ever want to be lonely. I don't ever want to be left alone, left behind. Forgotten, unwanted. I mean, who likes this kind of feeling? It sucks. A lot. Maybe recently a tinge of loneliness has been poking the sides of my soul. That suffocating feeling you get inside your chest. It hurts a lot. And i don't ever want to feel this way again.

I guess my heart is crying out: Don't leave me, don't forget me.

Trust me. Loneliness is a feeling you don't ever want to feel.

No regrets.

What is your ultimate goal in life? Some people want to be rich. Some want to be famous. Some people just want to be happy. Mine? I don't really know._. I mean. I want to be happy, but in this kind of society? Its practically impossible. Right now, i admit i am feeling quite happy now. Even if i dont have many things, i have my friends and my family and i have my relatives. I have my loved ones and i have myself. I have a great life, i have all my limbs intact...i should be really satisfied with everything already. Infact, everyone should be satisfied.

So doesnt that mean, as long as we are safe and sound and out of harm's way, and we have our loved ones beside us, we can be happy already? So, why care so much whether your job is high-paying or whether your results are good or bad? We should be happy with what we have and spend the rest of our time treasuring these things. We should just live our lives and enjoy life and just live in the moment. Live in our little bright bubble. Live as free as an uncaged bird.

I've decided. I am going to spend more quality time with my loved ones :) We will never know when our time will run out. It may be tonight, or tmr, or next week, or next month or whatever. I've come to realise that life is reaaally precious. I dont want to have any regrets in life. Laugh hard, go crazy. As long as we are happy, nothing else matters. Yes. I want to live my life to the fullest. Treasure everything i have. No regrets :)

You'll never know what you've missed out, until you've finally lost it. Treasure it well and leave no regrets behind.

Escape.

Sometimes, i just want to flee. To escape this harsh world. Escape to somewhere safe and somewhere happy. But then again, where?

This world is slowly moving to destruction. Destruction by humans. Although not all humans are bad, most of the world's problems are caused by us, humans. True, we created all these modern technology and true, our lives have somewhat improved. But. BUT. Humans were born with greed. Once we have something, we will do whatever it takes to explore deeper. We sacrifice many things in order to satisfy our never-ending greed.

We needed something to win wars, we created guns. We needed something better than guns, we created bombs. The nuclear bomb is one such creation. Some places in the world have nuclear bombs. The fate of the world could easily be shifted with these bombs, and that isnt neccesarily always good. Look at north korea. We may never know when they decide to launch their nuclear bombs. If they do, that would be the end of Earth, and probably the entire human race.

You see? We humans created these. Is it really neccesary? Wouldnt it be even better if everyone didnt have all these technology? Everyone will be happier, and their souls wont be fed to modern day technologies.

"Are we actually building? Or destroying?"

And meanwhile, on the other aspect of life, we students have to go through schooling which is actually a brain-drain for us. And through all these, we arent even happy. What is the point in life if every day is a misery?

I just want to be free. Free from the clutches of the world. Free from everything. Escape to safe place where happiness exists. Escape to a place where we are truly free and we can live life to the fullest.

Escape.

Faith.

Anything is possible. I believe many people have heard of the quote, "Nothing is impossible" :). This quote holds true. But i believe that the quote is incomplete. Nothing is impossible, as long as you have faith. Believe.

Having faith is something that requires a strong will. But once you have faith, nothing cannot be overcomed. Believe that something may happen, have faith, and it will happen. It's true! :D

Okayy i dont think i am making any sense. But i guess i just wanted to say this. Never give up, keep on believing, have faith and stay strong. Then, nothing will be impossible :)

Faith is a strong word and emotion. And it is also one of my favourite words. "Faith is a knowledge from within the heart". So my point is, just have faith. And good things will natural come to you :)

Time flies.

Time really flies. It seemed like it was only yesterday when i had my first SYF competition. And now, we are preparing to have our last SYF of our lives. SYF may be tough and all, but deep down, it is also the most fun and enjoyable period :) I feel kinda sad that this will be my final time performing. 5 years in dance society. Wow. I have really come a long way. I still remember the times when we entered the dance studio and everyone looked so foreign to us. And now, we are the senior batch of dancers already. Time really flies...

The truth is, 2-3 years back, i wouldnt have thought much about SYF. To me, that used to mean more practices and stuff. I didnt treasure it before. Now, i finally realise how much fun SYF is. I should have treasured it more. Tmr is our SYF performance, our final one. So let's do our best and rock the stage :) Let's leave behind a legacy for the future of dance society.

I guess now i finally know what this quote means: "You won't know what you've got, until you've lost it". Trye quote. Now that SYF is coming to an end, i kinda regretted not putting in more heart and effort into my previous SYF dances. Some people fail to treasure what they have right now. Until they lose it, then that is the point of no return. Too late, no space left for regrets. So what i am just trying to say is, treasure all that you have right now. If you dont treasure them, you will regret in the end.

Tmr is also our final practice with our seniors. Time flies too fast. Our last day to celebrate with them and treasure our seniors. Our seniors, the ones who have shaped our way of life in dance society. Thankyou seniors :) You will not be forgotten.

Time flies...time really flies.

Random quote :P

"When everything seems to be going against you, remember that the airplane takes off against the wind, not with it ...." - Henry Ford

If nothing seems to be going right, then look left :P Just remember to never give up and just do your best :) No matter what challenges or difficulties or emotions that you are facing now, however bad they may be, always look on the bright side.

There's always sunshine beyond the rain. There's always good times beyond the pain. :) Cheer up!! If you are feeling low or sian or just feeling as if the whole world is against you. Dont give up!! Have faith :D

Life is short.

Nobody knows how long our lives will last. In fact, maybe tmr could be our expiration. (Just a random thought). I mean, life is truly short. We will never know how much time we have left. So, why waste it? We should treasure each moment of our lives. Treasure it as if it were our last :) So we should not waste time being sad or emo or angry. Smileeee. Be cheerful. You never know who might be falling in love with your smile ^^ Laugh out loud, scream it out. Enjoy life while we still can. Dont have to think too much. Because all we need to do is to live in the moment :D

Age vs maturity.

One thing i can't understand, is why adults always think that we teenagers are young and immature and not in character and not ready. For bgr i mean. Hey. Just because we are teenagers, that doesnt mean that we are not mature. I have seen adults even more immature than some of us teenagers. So what right do adults have to say that we are not to go into bgr? Maturity is not determined by age. It is determined by the way how someone acts or thinks. So just because we're young, that doesnt mean that we are immature.

I just cant stand it when adults say that we arent ready for relationships. So when are we theoretically ready? When we are old and have a 'mature' character? Nahh i beg to differ. I dont want to be like the adults, zombie-like, law-abiding 'good citizens'. So rigid in their thinking. Adults arent flexible in their mind at all. They do not know how to think out of the box. All they know is to follow the 'guidelines' set by the higher-ups.

One example would be school socks. (Random example). The adults are always stressing that we must only wear school socks. But does the colour and type of our socks affect our studies? I mean, as long as the socks are comfortable, thats all that matters right? The type of socks that we wear to school isnt important at all. Yet, the adults place so much importance on it. Isnt this a great example of how adults are just rigid in their thinking? Idk. Maybe i am just being me again, thinking too much.

But anyways back to the topic. Just because we are young, that still doesnt mean that we cant be in a bgr. Adults say we cannot commit and cannot focus on studies? Well that is a bunch of bull. Who says we cannot focus on studies? Infact i think we may even do better because the couple are both helping each other, encouraging each other, and with a drive to do well, our studies will actually improve. And who says we cant commit? What i do know is that we can commit ourselves. And adults themselves also cant really commit. Since they have work and stuff. So doesnt that contradict with whatever that they are telling us?

What i am just trying to say is that, teenagers and adults arent all that different. We are all still part of the human race. We are all still human beings. We all have one heart. So what is it that makes us so different? Age? Age is not a factor. Your own mindset is. So all those teenagers out there, dont believe everything the adults say. No one is perfect in this world. Not even adults. They make mistakes too, they make wrong perceptions.

Learn from the past. Live in the present. Anticipate the future. While we are still young and still teenagers, we should enjoy our time right now. I dont ever want to become an adult without a childhood worth remembering and mentioning. When i grow up, i dont want to tell my children that i spent my childhood studying everyday. Life is short. Embrace it, treasure it :)

Long post. Hope you dont get too bored of reading all these :P

Sophisticated mind.

The human mind. Always thinking and working, never stopping. It is these thoughts that actually keep us going. Sometimes we try to think far and prepare ourselves. But sometimes, we just overthink. By thinking too much, i mean the negative part.

I am an insecure boii. Insecurities could be my downfall. And i tend to overthink alot. Which probably links back to my low self esteem. Low self esteem sucks. Im always thinking, why is that guy so tall and handsome. Why do i have so many pimples. Why am i so pale. Why am i so short? Yeah. To me, every oher guy out there is like perfection. All other guys beside me.

I have many flaws. But then again, who doesnt? Still, i cant help but feel like better looking guys will get chosen and taller and shuai-er guys will always get the upper hand. Guys like me? Idk where we stand. Its just....i overthink too much. Yep. And i should really stahp. I should be contented with who i am, and i shouldnt be comparing myself to others. But, it aint easy.

Yeah. Insecurities. The feeling sucks :(

First post :)

Love me for me
Not for someone I'd never be
Now I know what I want, what I need

Somebody who loves to treat me right
Somebody who loves to see me smile
Didn't you know that, you gotta treat me
Right, right

Hello :) I've officially changed my blog hehe. Just a short introduction of myself, incase you don't already know who i am. I am a 17-year-old boii, who is very random and shy :) I am taken, by an amazing girl, who is beyond perfection to me :P And lastly, i am a dreamer. Yes. I dream alot. Fantasy. A place far from reality. A place where everything is possible, and that nothing can ever put us down. A safe haven.

Yeah. This world is pretty much screwed up if you ask me. I mean. Yay we have all these fancy technology and stuff. I don't deny that these have improved our lives in one way or another. But. Has anyone ever stopped to wonder about the intangible harm that has been caused? :x Lets take a look at humans. Us. Every morning, i see people rushing to work, most with their earphones plugged in. Well, they may be humans, but they act like zombies. Everyone only looking forward and taking big strides. No one stopping to take a look at the surroundings and how much it has changed. 

And the next thing. Technology. The more advanced it is, the more addictive it can be. Everyone are so engrossed in their smartphones and stuff. Have you ever wondered what would happen if suddenly one day, all forms of technology died? How would people communicate then? I bet most people will be more concerned about who to complain to. All these technology may be improving our lives. Yet the irony remains, that it is also these technology that is ruining mankind. 

Or maybe i a just thinking too much. Oh i tend to do that alot :)

Okayyy i think this is too much for a first post XD Ahwell. Ciaossu!  :3