Insignificant. Invisible.

I guess i can be considered as invisible. My existence isn't all that important at all. One day if i actually disappeared without a trace, i wonder how many people would actually care, or actually realise. I'm not there for a class lesson, no one even realised. I'm sitting in a row of people, and sweets are being passed around, yet it never got to me. Walks past friends and waves at them, yet they look straight through me as if they dont know me at all. If i am removed from the equation of Life, i doubt anything will be changed. People will carry on with their lives. I would just become a part of history, which will be forgotten sooner or later.

It's funny how loneliness can be felt in a room full of people. Yeah sure, if i'm gone, some people will miss me and maybe mourn. But after a little while, life goes back to normal. To my friends out there, i wonder how many will still remember me. I wonder how many people will actually miss my existence. Has my life impacted anyone greatly? Or has it just been an insignificant part of everyone's lives?

I don't really know what i am feeling right now. But i guess i don't like the feeling of loneliness. Loneliness is a scary feeling. I don't ever want to be lonely. I don't ever want to be left alone, left behind. Forgotten, unwanted. I mean, who likes this kind of feeling? It sucks. A lot. Maybe recently a tinge of loneliness has been poking the sides of my soul. That suffocating feeling you get inside your chest. It hurts a lot. And i don't ever want to feel this way again.

I guess my heart is crying out: Don't leave me, don't forget me.

Trust me. Loneliness is a feeling you don't ever want to feel.