Many times, I:
Love a little too much.
Think a little too much.
Emo a little too much.
Laugh a little too much.
Understand a little too much.
Being insecure a little too much.
Feels neglected and unimportant a little too much.
Gets angry at myself a little too much.
Feels bad a little too much.
Worry a little too much.
Care a little too much.
But it's all just me.
It just goes to show that i have a heart and i really care.
Defined in my own special way with a quote:
True faith -> It is about exposing all your vulnerabilities and weaknesses to that one special person, and trusting that he/she will not mess with it.
Faith is related to believing in someone, which is also related to trusting someone. They are all interconnected in one way or another. But, how many of you can safely say that you have absolute faith in your friends? How many of your close ones are truly reliable? How many of them actually want the best for you, and not of you?
Because there are some people who do not deserve your faith, your trust. They do not deserve it, because they have betrayed your trust. And because of this, it is so hard to trust anyone now.
Sometimes, having faith in the wrong people will do more harm to you than you can ever imagine.
So, trust the right people. Because not everyone can be trusted.
Sometimes, people aren't all what they seem.
Sometimes, those who appear to be smiley and cheerful, are actually broken inside.
Sometimes, those who look strong-willed and tough, are actually weak on the inside.
Sometimes, those who are dependable and reliable, also need someone to depend on.
Sometimes, those who are always the ones helping others, also need some help themselves.
Sometimes, those who love very deeply, want to be loved just the same.
Sometimes, those who care alot about others, also want to be cared for.
Sometimes, people just want to be understood.
Most girls do not believe in true love. They do not believe in forever. They do not believe in a lot of things. But the question is...why?
I don't really know why either. But all i do know, is that there are some guys or girls, who go into a relationship just for the fun of it. In other words, fooling around. I mean, i've seen some couples who are quite close, but yet the guy always flirts around with other girls. I don't understand. I mean, being in a relationship means loving your partner wholeheartedly and truly. Which also includes loving her good points as well as her flaws. True love lasts a lifetime, because of this pure and simple love.
And yet, some people say that they love a certain person, but once you turn away, he suddenly seems to say those three words to anyone else. I love you. These three words. They are simple words, yet these words hold a strong meaning and definition. It is not to be fooled around with. To say these three words out loud, isn't easy. You will need courage from the heart and basically, only if you are truly in love, then you can use it. These three words symbolises a promise to each other, that they will only love each other, and no other person can take their place in their hearts.
And because many guys cheat on their girlfriend, or vice versa, it makes everyone else very wary of such things. Which pisses me off. I mean, relationship is all about trust. Which means, we put our absolute 100% trust into our partner, vulnerable to everything and just trusting that they will not toy with their heart. And some peple break this trust. Which results in more and more people not believing in true love or forever.
Now its my turn. I strongly believe that the end result of all relationships should ultimately lead to marriage. And by going into a relationship, it means that we have to be faithful and loyal to our partner. I mean, true love always last. So by right, all relationships WILL lead to marriage, unless someone else tries to break apart the trust, or the trust among the two is somehow lost. Which is rarely impossible if it is true love.
And when in a relationship, guys must stop flirting. It will make your girl more insecure and sad and emo and stuff. Just love her wholehearted, love only her. Instead of spending your time trying to talk to other girls, why not spend it on finding more ways to love and treasure your partner instead? And we should always stay faithful to our partner. If not, you will just breaking the trust and promise that both of you have of each other. I mean, isnt it stupid to fall in love with someone else, while you are in a relationship? You love your partner. Then no one else should be able to replace him/her in your heart. If this isnt the case for you, then i suggest you dont go into a relationship and destroying the trust and hearts of everyone else. Stop destroying the meaning of true love.
What people need to understand, is that true love and forever DOES exist. All they just have to do, is to find the right person.
Me.
I am original.
I am weird.
I am different.
I am not good-looking.
I am not strong.
I am not smart.
I am kind.
I am filial.
I am faithful.
I am understanding.
I am loving.
I am protective.
I am friendly.
But most importantly,
I am me. :)
Every one of us has different sides to ourselves. One is when we are with our family. One is when we are with our friends. One is when we are alone. When i am alone, i tend to think alot. And the stuff that i think about are deep, dark and dangerous.
Sometimes i wonder. What would life be like if one day, i just suddenly disappeared or died? Would life be changed? Or will it remain the same? Yeah sure. My friends would miss my presence, or maybe not. Still, after awhile, people are just going to forget that i had even existed. And yeah sure, some people will miss me. But then again, sooner or later someone will come along. Someone even better than me. Someone with better qualities than me. Someone who can make you all smile more than i ever did. Will you still remember me? Friends will find new friends. And life goes on after awhile. So. My existence has been so weak and insignificant. Life goes on. Nothing will change. It will just be like an invisible guy disappearing. No one will notice, no one will care.
Sometimes i wonder. Is it really worth it? I mean, life is so tough. Why not just give up? Standing on the roof, looking down into oblivion. All that it takes is just one step. One step. The shortcut to the groundfloor. Maybe then, we can break free. Maybe then, we are free from the clutches of life. Maybe then, we can finally be free, just like birds. And we can finally spread our hidden wings and fly. Fly to a place where there are no limits. Fly to a place where dreams can be reality instead of being just a projection of false hope. Fly among the clouds, fly in the heavens.
The dark side of our minds. Don't be too vulnerable, because that is when It will strike; when you are at your weakest.
The state of mind whereby something happened, and at that exact same moment, you have a flashback of whatever that had just happened. Its just like you have seen it happening before. Its a very strange phenomenom.
Its as if time had turned back, and what we remembered happened in the past and is happening again. Except that it is just a feeling. It is very strange. Nothing can explain deja vu.
But i remembered a professor who once told me about deja vu, and its relation to parallel universes. Apparently, all of us are living in one universe, in our current time and space. But, they are millions of other universe out there, each depicting a different side to each of us. For example, if i hated chocolate is this current time and universe, the 'me' in the parallel universe will probably love it alot. Its like an infinite number of versions of us.
And this weird flash back that we experience is probably that the other 'me' from another parallel universe is doing the EXACT same thing as what we were doing previously. Which causes a memory flux, which is now called, Deja Vu.
The universe is full of mysteries. It's funny to realise how puny our lives actually are, comparatively.
Many people have the misconception that people with good grades and results are the 'smart' people. But can an individual's 'smartness' be entirely judged by our grades?
I mean, everyone wants to get good grades so that they can get a good job, high salary, recognition blablabla. The usual standard stuff ofcourse. But while trying to achieve good grades, many people, in fact most, forget the true meaning of learning. Learning is supposed to be fun, supposed to be interesting, fascinating, breath-taking. Learning is about exploring new boundaries. But now, all we care about is whether we can pass the particular topic or not.
Many people forget that learning is fun. So where has the element of fun disappeared to? And so, through this mad struggle to obtain better grades, people neglect the other aspects. Leadership, learning how to overcome obstacles, organisation skills, planning etcetc. All these are out of education syllabus. Meaning, it cannot be taught. It can only be learnt through first-hand experience.
Most people with good grades, can't even organise people together. They cant lead. They cant do many things. Thats because every day of their lives, all they have been doing to just burying their heads among mountains of books and study materials from trying to achieve good grades. Can these people really be called intelligent?
Because all i know is that, Intelligence cannot be defined just by our grades.
20 years down the road. Where will you be? What will you be doing? Who are you going to be with? The future is an unknown. It is impossible to know what will happen. Maybe i'll be somewhere overseas studying. Or maybe i'll be at home with my family, wife snd kids. Or maybe, i'll be high up among the clouds, watching over the world. Who knows?
No one will ever know what will happen many years later. But what i do know, is that in the future, we will look back into the past, our past, which is now. We are going to recall the things we did and everything that happened. Memories. Precious memories never die. That is why, right now we should all focus on being happy, going crazy and living young, wild and free. So, dont waste your time. Spend it wisely. These precious memories will be all we have in the future.
So, be happy. Live freely. Take many photos. Because even if the people change, the photo and memories will never change.
Afterall, memories last a lifetime.
Life can be seen as different things. It can be a representation of a certain object or idea.
Life can be seen as a jigsaw puzzle. Every day or every moment is just like a piece of the puzzle. Ultimately, we are aiming to complete this giant puzzle, this puzzle of our lives. But ofcourse, along the way, we will meet obstacles and problems. Along the way, some of the pieces may be hard to find or some pieces just dont fit together. Don't force it. Take it slowly, because no matter which path you take, in the end it is just for the completion of our lives.
Life can be seen as a never-ending flight of stairs. Except that this flight of stairs is unique. The steps vary. We all aim to reach the top. To reach fulfilment of our lives. Every step we take is one step closer to the end goal. Ofcourse, it isn't an easy path. Some of us will tire out. Some will fall. Some of the steps are uneven and some might be very steep and high. Some of us will give up halfway. But what is important is that no matter what happens, we keep on trying, keep on moving forward. If you fall, pick yourself up. Just remember to get back on your feet.
Life can be seen as a labrinth. A maze, full of paths and traps. Some paths lead to dead-ends. Some lead you in circles. Some paths can be misleading and tough. Every time when you have gone into wrong path, just like whenever you meet obstacles in life, what is important is that you do not panic. Keep calm and think carefully. Because a calm mind is a clever mind. You can always turn around, retrace your steps and start a new path again. Even though it seems never-ending, and that escape seems impossible, don't ever give up. Even though life right now seems bleak and dark and that you can't see the light out of the tunnel, DON'T GIVE UP. Cause if you give up on yourself, no one else will be able to help you.
Ofcourse, there are still some people who are still living in their self delusion. They are still immature in the head. Kids. But can't we really blame them. Afterall, they aren't mature. They need to wake up from that warped fantasy of theirs.
Life can be seen as many things. It all depends on our perspective.
Yeah sure, being friends is fine. But make sure you know your limits. Cause some people are unaware of themselves sometimes. Don't go too far with your actions. Because going overboard is bad. And lucky for you, i am nice. Maybe a little too nice. But even the most patient people in this world has their own limits. Don't cross the line. Watch out for your own actions. Especially when things are already made clear. Stop living in your own self delusion. Open your eyes and accept that fact.
'Cause once my limit is reached, things ain't gonna look pretty.
Life is never easy. Life is complicated. Life is full of obstacles. Life can also be fun and enjoyable. It all depends on one thing. Perspective.
The journey of life isnt all a bed of roses. There are bound to be some thorns and stuff that will hurt you. It depends on whether you choose to cry and give up, or patch up your wounds and keep going forward. I mean, a smart person wouldnt pray for an easy life. He/she would pray for the strength to overcome a difficult life.
What is interesting about an easy life? It will be too boring. Thats why, sometimes life throws obstacles or problems at us, to make life difficult for us. Some people will lament on why life is difficult. Sometimes even i do that. But as i've said, it is all about perspective. If life is difficult, doesnt that mean that we can get stronger? After we overcome each obstacle, we get stronger and tougher. Ultimately, it is good for us.
So right now, if your life is tough and difficult and tiring and all, dont give up. Just remember, all these are going to shape your resolve, your heart and your soul. They are going to determine what kind of person you are going to be. So just go with the flow. If you fall, pick yourself up and carry on. If you are hurt, lick your wounds and endure the pain. If you come to a dead end, break down that dead end and create new paths for yourself.
Afterall, life is a test. The ultimate test.
Words are just something that we people speak. Or is it? No one really knows how much power there is in words.
Words can be sweet. Words can be soothing. However, words can also be horrible and evil. Have you ever wondered what words could actually do to a person? Yeah sure it can do great and nice things to people. Yet it can also do irreparable harm.
Words are powerful tools. They can make or break a person. Becareful of what you say. Because maybe to you, it sounds normal and okay. But the truth is, it is far from okay. It might have struck deep into the other person's heart. And humans tend to take in words more importantly into our hearts. The words that you say, it may cause invisible harm to others. So, just be aware of this.
Words is a double-edged sword. Becareful with how you use it.
This week has been terrible. My teachers say that i look tired. My head is constantly throbbing. My friends say my eyebags are super bad. I struggle to stay awake. Furthermore, my emotions are unstable. They fluctuate so much. One moment i am happy, the next moment i feel sad and emo.
But thats the weird thing. I havent really emo-ed much ever since. I have become happier and more cheerful. And less insecure and all. But this week, everything bad suddenly came flooding back. And i have no idea why. I guess its my fault. Because of tests, i was mugging till very late. Which resulted in me being so tired everyday. I should know how to manage stress and pressure better. I should not let it get the better of me. Afterall, if i let it mess with me, it will destroy me and hurt others around me.
In a nutshell, the past week has been terrible. I hope it stops here and i hope it wont ever happen again.
Life has its ups and downs. It is never smooth-sailing. But what truly matters is the way we choose to handle it.
Sometimes, i take a look into the mirror. I get mixed feelings. I feel one part curious. The other part disgusted. Why disgusted, you may ask. Well, take a look at me, and you'll probably know why.
I guess its just my low self esteem kicking in again. I mean, i cant help it. I feel inferior. Like i am not good enough. Like everyone else is better than me. Maybe they are. Mirrors can tell you a whole lot of things. They show you how you look like, and how you feel about yourself. And it showed me very well. Yeah. I have no self confidence. I think very lowly of myself.
Even till now. I still think alot. Alot of 'what if's. And then once again, my inferiority kicks in. I mean. Yeah. Why am i so worthless? And ugly and dumb and stupid and think too much.
Mirrors. Always showing me this. Thanks. But then again, maybe there really is some good in my reflection. Maybe i should change myself. I mean, someone once told me:
If you can't see anything beautiful about yourself, get a better mirror. Look a little closer. Stare a little longer.
Mirrors. Sometime reflecting the wrong images. Or is it just our eyes playing tricks on us? Mirrors. Mysterious things, they are.
Sometimes you feel sick and tired of living in this godforsaken world. A world where definitions are warped and words are knives and lives are insignificant.
Sometimes, i find it pointless to live. I'd rather die than to live my life like a soul-less human. We are all different, special and unique in our own ways. Yet people choose to be copies. No one is truly original now. No one is truly themselves. Their true selves. So many of us are just putting on that mask. That mask that conceals our true selves just to fit in. Just to fit in to this messed up world.
Being our true selves. That is most important. I mean, we were all created for a reason. It isnt mere coincidence that we are all in tbis current life. So why do people still want to hide their true selves? Maybe it is to conceal themselves in this dark world. Because they would be judged and ridiculed if they didnt. Maybe it is not by choice, but by circumstances. But still. Ohwell.
A mask of sanity. If you put it on for too long, you might lose your true identity.
Society has us chained up. Like prisoners. Prisoners of cruelty. Prisoners of hardship. Prisoners of life.
Society controls people. It manipulates people. Or rather, it controls our thinking. Our mentality has changed so drastically from the past. I mean, now happiness don't really mean much anymore. The most important thing in everyone's life is success. Has anyone noticed this yet? Everything we do, the ultimate goal is success. We all aim to be successful.
The journey to success is full of traps. Traps and obstacles that will hurt you and try to make you fail. These obstacles are never easy to overcome. It takes alot of power to overcome just one. And there are so many more to go through. And through this mad struggle for success, people sacrifice and forsake happiness. Isn't happiness the key to success? It seems like in our current society, it is the other way round. And even so, success does not equate to happiness. Success now is about people sacrificing their happiness for it. And it is happiness that they will never experience again.
Another thing is, murder is a serious crime in our world. Yet, does murder only circle around human beings? What about animals? Animals are living beings just like us. They have emotions. They can feel pain, suffering and fear. Stop for a moment and think. The meat that you are having for lunch and dinner. How did it come about? How did the animals get slaughtered? How did they feel when humans cast their razor-sharp blades into their hearts? Did you know the methods that humans used to kill these innocent animals? Animals have feelings too. So the mindless slaughter of animals is not murder, and yet for humans, it is? What gives us the right to do this? Just because that animals cant talk or retaliate, does that mean that we can do whatever we want with them?
Yet, society covers all these up. The truth is covered up. They make us think that it is fine and normal to do stuff like these. Society changes the priority of life. Society changes our mindsets.
So how can we say that we aren't prisoners of our society?
