Loneliness. Do i really matter?

Loneliness. What a sad feeling it is; to be forgotten, to be replaced, to be abandoned. It's a fucking sad feeling. And sometimes i feel that my existence is completely meaningless.

Nobody cares. People say they do. But for how long? If i died, who would care? Yeah people will be sad and mourn, maybe. But after a few months or years, people will gradually forget about you. Or maybe it's just me. I'm not a very popular guy. I'm not even categorised as your average joe. I am just another somebody, i am not worth mentioning, i am not worth existing.

Yeah people say that they care. Mostly empty words. Prove it then, prove that you really care (not with words but with actions), prove that i am worth it, prove that i am not just another guy. Am i really that replaceable? Am i really nobody special? Ask yourselves this: who am i to you. Then prove it. Way too many people have made empty promises and said meaningless words of comfort ad assurance. Prove that you arent lying, prove that you really care. Otherwise, you'd just be the same as the rest, saying empty things and making empty promises. Afterall, all of us never want to experience the feeling of loneliness.

Fake people, liars, backstabbers...there are just way too many of such people. I never want to be one, and i'm hoping no one will. Until then, i guess all that i am is just lonely. Lost, and waiting to be found.

Why can't people be more...understanding(?) I mean. I am willing to sacrifice so much for my friends, even for those i barely know. I always go the extra mile, take risks, sacrifice my all. Yet, why cant people do the same back for me, even if its just a little bit. Cmon. Am i really that insignificant? Am i really a nobody, such that people think they dont have to care about me; about how i feel?

Sometimes i just wish people can step in my shoes and look at things through my perspective. Everything i say, everything i do, the decisions i make, there are always reasons. Its just that most people dont understand, and they judge. Before you do that, pls step in my shoes. Maybe then, you're understand me better. Yep. I just wish people would see things through my perspective. I wish i mattered.