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"I am not happy. I am not unhappy. I am frozen somewhere in the middle that is so much worse. I am nowhere. Nothing is happening and i am getting more and more sad."

My eyes hurt because i can't sleep.
But i can't sleep because my head hurts from serious anxiety.
I'm a poet who can't write, an intellect who can't excel academically, i'm drowning in my own failures and i've never been good at asking for help.
I feel mentally claustrophobic and i don't know how, but right now i'd just like to relax.